THE EVIL IN ME

We are all born with a dark side.  We live in a world of duality.  For every action there is a reaction, good and bad.  Take for instance the Internet.  Although it’s like a huge spider web that connects us all, and gives access to greater knowledge, it is also used in negative ways as well.  There’s child pornography, and those who use it to spread their hatefulness of others.

Even now as I write, someone is going to hate this post, while others will like it.  That’s just the way it is.  And this is why we have to be more accepting of each other and exercise a little forgiveness.  The evil in me is the evil in you too.  I can accept the title of asshole occasionally, because I can be one.

The other morning I went to the laundry matt, because the bed comforters are too heavy for my washer.  I use there side loader and can wash both comforters at the same time, and save the wear and tear on my own washing machine. 

The lady who tends the machines and makes change made a comment about how nice I was on this day.  She was like, “You’re usually a little uptight when you come in here.”

Somewhat offended, I started to reiterate what had happened to me on one visit months before.  Of course she knew the story though, because I had complained to her about the dude who had made me move my car so he could power wash the parking lot.  Being a paying customer, I was upset by the inconvenience and asked her why this wasn’t being done after business hours?

Anyway, as fast as I started rehashing the story, I stopped. I began to sense all that negativity as I spoke and I didn’t want to reinforce her judgment from our previous run in, because regardless, our view points were conflicting.  Nothing I said was going to change that.  So I told her, “Well you know, we all have our good days, and we all have our bad days.” 

She asked me to repeat myself, then thought about it for a second, then agreed with me, “You got that right,” she replied with a chuckle.

It isn’t always that easy to recognize when you’re wrong. Sometimes you think you stand on the side of righteousness, yet in another’s reality, you’re being a real asshole.  It’s just a matter of perspective; whose eyes you use to view any given situation.

To be compassionate of others is to be compassionate to yourself.  Forgive others and you will be forgiving of yourself.   After all, we are all human.  To be human is not to be perfect, but to be accepting of our own faults, as well as the faults of others.